The Bald Goat

I failed yesterday.

I didn’t blog.

No one said anything to me about it. I didn’t get struck by lightning. I don’t face any fines or penalties, but still it was a failure.

Yesterday was a crazy busy day. We had a birthday party for one of the coolest kids in the world, my son, Seven. He is now officially 4. His actual birthday was Monday the 11th, but he would not accept he was a year older until he had a party (so cute!) I made alien cupcakes, mowed our lawn, mulched our flower beds, cleaned up our backyard, had a party, did some shopping, finished our taxes, and got the kids into bed. I crashed on the couch while waiting for the kids to drop off to sleep and fell asleep myself. Amy woke me up and told me to go to bed… and I did. (Like a good husband, I listened…this time.) All of this and I didn’t blog.

I woke up this morning and felt the shame.

I didn’t mean to skip a day. Lent is so close to being over and I failed! It has been on my mind all day and I share with you my remorse and guilt and shame.

And now I move on.

Wait… What?

Yep, now I move on. God already has. And so will I. I can’t dwell on this mistake. I can’t let it destroy me. I have felt the pain and God had seen my heart. I believe he has forgiven me and I will now forgive myself and move on. Today was a new day and I will be faithful for this day. It is really all I have.

Tomorrow is a new day and I will face it when I get there.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ~ Matthew 6:34

(I have had fun with this post, although I will admit that the guilt of not writing yesterday has bothered me all day. Not blogging is far from being a sin, but the way we deal with guilt and mistakes is somewhat universal. Our inability to forgive ourselves of our mistakes can destroy us. Think what it would be like if we could forgive ourselves of our bigger mistakes this easily. We can and I believe we should. Tomorrow is a new day.)

God, thank you for forgiving us when we mess up and fail. My prayer is simple in length and difficult in heart. Help me to forgive myself.